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Failing. Even more stuff. Did I mention failing?

taxonomites has a list of 'wanted characters' and I saw Harmony and I was like... I want to app her. HA. I know I was sorta thinking about putting her in

polychromatic (why yes I am very ambitious) but blahblahblah insecurities about playing her in a big game and blahblahblah I don't actually have a reason for playing her but I do love trolling Btvs and Angel characters with her everywhere, so. Thank goodness

taxonomites has a rule that only 2 characters per fandom is allowed because really, if I pushed Harmony in, I will end up playercest-ing since there is no way Cordy and Harmony wouldn't interact in the same damned setting.

2. Dec. 11. You guys I'm paranoid so I keep thinking that with lj notifs being all wonky and non-existent, they might encounter problems and I will end up wasting my ~~sister's~~ hard-earned money when I pay for Cordy's account. UGH. Plus I don't even know how I should instruct my sister to pay for it. Should I just tell her to buy two 20$ LJ gift certificates or something? PAYING FOR LJ SERVICES IS EXTREMELY NEW TERRITORY TO ME AND I HATE EXPLORING NEW TERRITORY.

3. My due date for the exchange has come and gone AND I STILL HAVEN'T FINISHED THE DAMN STORY. I received an email from the mods and I was like, "...SHIT." Thank goodness I was granted another extension! FRIDAY WILL BE THE DAY AND I WILL BE DONE WITH THAT MONSTER, YES. And I've been reading the entries for the exchange and I'm like literally cringing at how awesome they are, whereas I'm over here, having a lot of difficulties with characterization. Seriously, I myself am very annoyed at how OOC the people in my story are. I spent most of today going GADAMIT THIS IS NOT SOMETHING DRACO OR HERMIONE WILL DO OR SAY and there is nothing better at killing your drive to write than not recognizing your characters at all. UGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

4. ...I spilled water on my keyboard - AND NOW ONE OF MY SHIFT KEYS IS IN A PERPETUAL STATE OF SHOCK. Like seriously, it just doesn't work anymore. And sometimes the T, Y, < and > keys don't even work - like if you try typing the letters all big and capslocky they won't even appear. And now I have an on-screen keyboard like always up because otherwise I won't be able to type some words AND CODING IS BECOMING A PAIN BUT it's my fault so. 8|

5. I've decided to postpone applying for jobs until after Christmas because seriously, is there a company out there that actually accepts newbies during the Christmas season?

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I knoooooooow, the fics at the exchange are so good! I was actually moderately pleased with ours until I started reading theirs. Ugh. Dystopia was amazing, wasn't it? *sigh*

We've been struggling with this thing we're doing for dramione_advent. It just doesn't come out right. *shakes head*

on-screen keyboard? Never heard of one of those. Cool. :) Or, not so cool, since it must be much harder to use than a regular keyboard, unless your screen is, for some reason, touchscreen. Hehe.

Yeah, it was, but I found myself utterly charmed by The Scientific Method XD

It's sad, isn't it? Like before writing DHr was a piece of cake, but now... UGH.

I think all laptops/PCs have one? It's in the Control Panel, I think. You just have to hover and click the appropriate letter and that's how I'm compensating for my blunder.

Yeah, The Scientific Method was great. :D Such a different idea! Haven't reviewed it yet, waiting for Pips to read it.

I think for me it's perhaps a lack of Christmas spirit, with regards for the dramione_advent. Hehe. I dunno. It just hasn't hit me that in- OH MY GOSH, FIFTEEN DAYS?!?!?!?! it'll be Christmas. Okay. It's kind of hitting me now. I hope our Christmas shopping is done, that I haven't forgotten anyone. Hehe. Gah.

Oh, I thought it was something you had downloaded from the internet or something, hehe. Makes sense, I suppose, that computers would have it. :)

Btw, thanks for the virtual gift- the snowflake! :D Meant to make a post thanking you, but er, yeah, never got around to it. *cough* Hehe. Sorry! And thank you! :D

Merry Christmas too!

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I spilled water on my keyboard a few weeks ago as well. In my despair I simply shut down the laptop, blow-dried the keyboard (yes, I seriously did that) et voila... everything has been fine again ever since then.

Oh, I told my mother to give me a paid LJ-account for Christmas and now I'm not sure if that was the right decision... the notifications seem to work fine for me but the HTML editor is acting all wonky and has been driving me mad those past few days :S So I understand your misgivings but am not a real help...

Oh! That's what I did, too - but I think I really messed up the Shift key pretty well. I wish I thought of blow - drying it. I think I underestimated the amount of water I spilled in the damn thing.

Hehehe it's okay! The only things I'm after with the paid account is the 100 icons and the edit function - both features I deem absolutely important in RP-ing :D

Sounds like the only thing helping will be a trip to the local computer geek hut... ;)

I'd be happy with 30 icons... but the editing function is REALLY a big plus. And I want to syndicate my own feeds because none of the blogs I follow (or would follow if I didn't forget looking them up regularly) are in the LJ syndicated list -_-

Oh goody, I think LJ notify just began hating me, as well...

Yeah, maybe. But I'm overprotective of my baby - as long as it's still working and turning on then NOBODY WILL TOUCH IT BUT MEEEEEE.

I know! I never really appreciated the beauty of the edit button until I started using it with my sponsored accounts. Sure saves a lot of time than, say, copy-pasting and coding the whole thing again.

Ugh, it's been spotty at best for me - though today was bad, I think, since the notifs I'm receiving are from yesterday 8|

I hope they get this thing under control again fast. I still want that paid account but I also don't want my mom to waste her money on something that doesn't deserve it. To be honest... I'm already dreading posting the next

fanfic100 entry because that always involves heavy coding and a possible rampage if the editor is being a bitch again -_-

BTW... do write that D/Hr story. It's been way too long since I read anything fresh by you (although I do keep coming back to "Abyss"... to me it's a true classic among D/Hr stories) :D

Have you tried coding your story in notepad/wordpad before copy-pasting it? Usually that's how I get by if I'm writing a story and posting it in LJ. Man, the days of having prepaid internet has taught me a lot :D

Awww! That's so sweet of you to say! Abyss is really dear to my heart because I really, really can't focus on things for too long (which would explain why a lot of my wip are still and will forever be wip) so finishing a ginormous story like that is definitely a huge deal for me :)

That might be an idea... I think the problem right now is that I copy/paste them directly out of MS Word and LJ automatically codes them with an enormous amount of tags and actually want to keep that formatting (because it makes the text look better). Maybe I'll just precode the header because that's what's obviously giving the editor headaches (it mostly seems to have problems with LJ username tags - everything looks fine in the rich text editor but when I switch to HTML and back half of what I just wrote is gone...).

I was glad you did finish Abyss because I just love the ending to death :D

Ohhh I see. Well, it won't hurt to try? I mean, I haven't used MS Word for a long time and copy-pasting from wordpad never gave me troubles.

♥ Thank you :)

Is playercesting not allowed?

You will be done because I want to read it! :P No, but I hope you will be done, if only for your own sake so you don't have it hanging over you like a lump. Because then it'll start to feel like a chore to write it and that's no fun.

It sounds to me as if you should not read the exchange stories until you've finished your own - at the very least, it might help you push forward with your own story if you see a summary that interests you lots.

That really sucks. I'd send you my water-resistant keyboard but I don't think it would work (if even allowed through customs). My sister got it for me after I'd spilled yet another glass of juice over it and the sugar made the keys stick and not work. Meh. I hope it just needs to get over the shock and will start working again once it's completely dried up.

I doubt that - it's a good plan. You could use the time to research the places you want to apply to and work on your CV and stuff.

It is, to a certain extent but I dunno. It feels a bit weird and icky that everyone knows you're playing with yourself, though - but maybe I'm just too sensitive about things like that.

Hahah! I want to finish the damn thing too, because I really did miss writing about DHr. I guess I just miss the spark of the old days when writing them comes naturally and easily to me.

Hmm, maybe you're right. I end up getting jealous and hating what I wrote even more 8| Actually I'm reading the entries because I wanted to revisit and see how people characterize Draco - for some reason I think I've lost him in me, or something. It may be because of the plot I have, though, but. Eh.

Aww! I would have loved that :) Thanks, though! In fairness the keyboard of my laptop still works, thank God, so I guess I'll just to bear with the kinks :)

HAHAHA. Ahem. Yes, I can understand that. It would make for easier set up in terms of time when you're going to play, because you don't have to wait for another person, but I certainly understand what you mean. At least though they aren't a romantic couple!

I know what you mean. When I get going for real on my Draco BB, I'm going to spend time reading D/Hr first, and perhaps even parts of the books just to get that feeling back - not just about them, but about the whole series.

Draco is a difficult character to write, especially if like me you've not really written him since before HBP/DH came out and he became something different from our fanon version of him.

:)

Haha! Yeah. Fortunately they aren't because seriously, how weird will that be? Might as well have written a fic instead of playing both characters XD

Yeah. HBP/DH really has given him characteristics other than the 'smug arrogant bastard' that's been his trademark for some time 8| Oh well!

It's also given him depth and something that an author has to work through and explain which isn't always easy. What I mean is, before, it was mostly from Draco's side to work through his family issues with liking Hermione because he's grown up learning and thinking she's everything he should hate. And while Hermione too would have some trouble getting over his behaviour, she's more understanding and they were young and I think more forgiving and accepting of him having changed his ways.

If things had stayed there - but now, now it's so much more and I think it's mostly on Hermione's side to work out her feelings about how she could be with someone who was the reason Dumbledore died (though not the sole one and not the killer, but if not for him, Snape wouldn't have had to kill him and even if Voldemort had sent someone else to try and kill him, then at least Draco wouldn't have been involved in it) and all the war between them, including her being tortured in his home.

Not exactly the easiest thing to work past I figure.

Oh, definitely. If an author wants to be as close to canon as she possibly could, then she has to factor in all of these. Not so easy, really :(

It's also not as easy to not be canon - perhaps not to write, but to get people to read. I think anyway, because it seems to me as if most people at least in our part of the fandom rather read canon (if up to a point) than not. Like it's some sort of cop-out (er, that's what it's called right? :P) to skip the parts of the books you don't want to have to deal with in your story.

I think cop-out is the right term, but I could be wrong too :P

True. I think one of the fun things about reading Dramione after DH is how authors can find a way around the whole R/Hr thing - or how they can fit the story in between the last chapter and the horror that is the epilogue - which would definitely mean that the story, though DHr, will not end happily ever after.

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